Tuesday, November 3, 2009

An Answer

After living day by day without answers since mid-August we finally know where we will be living and which store my husband will be working in. We will, in fact, be living in Florida. We are all very excited. The planner in me let out of sigh of relief at finally knowing. I have had to let go completely these last two months and just live day to day trusting God to work out the details.

For well over a year God has been working on me; taking away the layers of things I held onto for security and teaching me that all I really need is in Him. Two job losses in a year has shown me you can't depend on a job for security. I see now how much security I had found in the job my husband held for 11 years. I didn't realize it gave me security until it was gone. An income slashed almost in half has reminded me that security does not come from money. The death of people dear to me has revealed to me security does not come from earthly relationships. And finally not knowing where I would be living for two months has shown me that security is not something I can give myself by planning my life out the way I think it should go. My life is His. My security is in my sweet Lord. He gives me enough for each day and that is all I need.

I won't say this journey's been easy. I've cried. I've prayed. I've searched His word. I've been scared. I've asked why. I have wanted to skip the valley and just go back to sitting on the mountain top. And I still want to know the answers to all the questions I have like now. I'm not the best at waiting on the Lord but through this He is teaching me how to wait and drawing me closer to Him.

These last two months have been particularly challenging and I'm not naive enough to think it's going to get much easier from here on out. There are still a lot of unanswered questions. Will we find an affordable rental? When will our house sell? Can we continue to get by on one income? What about finding new schools and a new church? If I allow myself to sit and dwell on any of those questions the anxiety begins to build and I start wanting to take back control and start worrying myself sick. But last week God answered one question. He's taking us to Florida. And I know that when He's ready more questions will be answered. He's taken care of us up to this point. He has promised to continue to do so.

Jeremiah 29:11
11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

And for that, I'm grateful.

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carlisle clan conversation... said...

Awesome attitude, thanks for sharing your journey...it's inspiring. Praying for answers and more peace!

Kirsty said...

Beautiful post Janet. So true, thank you. I am thrilled for you all, I'm sure the journey ahead is going to be wonderful.

kbreints said...

That was a great post... I am sure it is a great deal of weight off knowing where you will be moving...

What part of florida are you moving to? I lived there when I was younger... what a great place to grow up!

I am sure that you will find your place in the community without any problems!

Jodi Davis said...

Your attitude is an inspiration. It's hard to let go and let God take care of it all. Good luck to you! AND WONDERFUL POST!

The Not So Perfect Housewife said...

Oh, I'm so happy for you. Your coming down where we live!!

I didn't know you had all that going on. It is so hard some times to keep holding on and trusting when you can't see the outcome! So happy you are starting to see some signs of direction!

Another good thing.. the real estate market is so crazy down here, you'll have a TON of houses to choose from.

Where in FL are you going? We are in between Daytona Beach and Orlando.

I look forward to seeing God continue to work through this for you!

paparazzimom said...

how exciting!!!! What a beautiful post, thank you for sharing Janet. Where in FL? These life lessons you've shared really help me keep perspective too. Thank you!!!

Micah, Tiffany, Andrew, and Elijah said...

I can't believe I haven't seen your blog before now! I can be totally sympathetic in the moving department. May God be near to you all during your transition.

Denise said...

Yay!! I'm so glad that you have one answer. Praying for a smooth transition when you make the move.

Pam said...

Wonderful attitude, Janet! God has been reminding me of the same things.